(:

Get over it

2012-02-25T02:08:00.000-08:00

Yo so how are ya all doing lately?

Umm it has been some times since my last update.

I wasn't in the mood to update for the past few days since

something bad came up few days ago.

But i'm all fine now. :)

so..

I don't really know what should i talk about.

umm let me think..

Ah yeah, i'm going to kl on 2nd of march for a trip

with ckm and puisan! :)

It will be a 2 days 2 nights trip. Honestly, i'm really excited for it.

Since this will be the second time i go to a trip with friends. :D

Hee. So i've been thinking what to wear and bring and all that.

I've been doing exercise lately.

If i don't i'm worry i'll become a monster fulled with fats soon. XD

Ahaha i have to! since doing exercise is not a bad thing too,

so why not?

umm and i couldn't wait to get my spm result too!

I don't know but i just hope to get it soon.

I'm so curious about the result to be honest.

Alright, my body condition is not that good recently so i'll stop here.

Take care guys. :)

PASSED!

2012-02-17T23:37:00.000-08:00

buddies! I have finally passed my car license test!

Not bragging but i'm really happy :D

I was nervous like shit during the test. I'm not even joking.

The thought of failing really drives me crazy XD

But thank god i passed.

I prayed real hard yesterday night and also this morning before i went out.

I had stomachache last night and i couldn't sleep well too.

I was so glad that i passed.

I don't really know how to express my gratitude towards everyone that support me.

Every single of you who wished me luck, i would like to thank you sincerely.

Thank you ckm, for lending me 'your' yoseob for me to think about

so that i'll not be nervous.

Thank you zhenying, for telling me to ignore those jpj examinors and imagine

they were yoseob. lol

Thank you huiting, for supporting me all along from my pre-test until now.

Thank you nicole and brother who wished me luck. :)

Without all of your supports i don't think i would be able to pass.

You guys are truly sweet. <3

SO, i'll be getting my license on either tuesday of wednesday. :D

I also messaged my dad-

Me: Daddy i have passed the car test already :D

Dad: Very good la

Hahahah honestly i didn't expect my dad to reply me this way.

It was really comforting and i somehow gain strength from this.

I love my dad <3

That's all for today. I'm really tired actually.

Once again, thankyou.

Worries

2012-02-14T22:51:00.000-08:00

Recently i keep having the thought of me gaining weight.

lol it's like a can feel that my tummy is getting bigger day by day.

But i'm so lazy to care about it, sighs. ε-(´・｀)

Seems like i have to stop eating all day and night without stopping.

This longggg holiday really is too long and i didn't really

exercise or even move. ＿|￣|○

and somehow my body feels weird.. (ι´Д｀)

All i did everyday was sitting right here in front of the computer and

fangirling like a boss. :b

However! I did some recordings.

There's nothing i feel like doing except for singing.

I kinda forget about problems the moment i was singing so

it makes me feels good. :)

I'm quite into this song lately so i thought of doing a cover.

Heaven by Ailee.

It's the song i put in my jukebox. Enjoy listening! (*＾▽＾)／

Ah, as you can see i customized my blog a little.

Just to keep it fresh :)

Lotsa Fun!

2012-02-12T01:24:00.000-08:00

I had fun for today's outing with dad!

Went to.. er.. i don't know what's the name of that place oh god

Sorry about that. lol

But this is the first time i look loads of pictures!

But don't expect to see me in those pictures alright.

I don't hope to hurt your eyes so just,

enjoy the nature and take a look at them with a calm heart.

It's a really comfortable place,

where you can breath in fresh and chilling air,

where you can feel the presence of god,

where you would totally love to live especially during hot weather like these days. lol

alright, nonsense aside, here we go!

This is the Japanese weather doll. lovely :)


Taken from above. We have to walk on the rocks step by step :)


Wishes.

Health is the most important among all. :)


my dad over there. :D i love this pic :)


This hole is super fun to pass through lol


Let's sit lol


This one is super lovely. people hang their card here after writing what they want to say to their love one. :)


And i saw this one, there wrote '__, we stay together forever. __' Isn't it sweet? :)

There are still more photos but i'm lazy to upload. :P

And lastly, this one, a meaningful one,

Not going to translate lol

Okay, so i really had fun today!

Photographs are really lovely and amazing, aren't they? :)

Pre-test!

2012-02-09T22:48:00.000-08:00

I have my driving pre-test today!

I'm not really nervous or scared but still

the feeling of worry lingers in me.

However, i will do my very best!

umm am i too conscious about my driving test?

It's like i keep talking about it.

But i have nothing to worry about except this so..

I'm worry if i keep thinking about it,

it will turns out bad. :c

Meh, anyway, if i passed i will continue this post when i come back!

So here, let me drop you guys a selca. :3

I enjoy doing all kind of stupid faces. Ignore me,

But wait, isn't this my blog?

Meh, I'm posting what i like of course.

Going to get ready now! Byong!

Very soon!

2012-02-08T03:06:00.000-08:00

I'm getting my driving lesson very soon!

I guess.. lol only if i passed smoothly of course.

Alright so today was supposed to be the last driving lesson,

but the teacher wants another 2 more hours for additional. Meh

But to be frank i don't mind learning longer.

Since it hasn't reach the date for me to take my test,

which is one month after i got my L license.

So.. let's take it slowly, shall we? :)

Hmm somehow it has gotten more obvious.

I hope what i was guessing all these while isn't real.

I sang another song by the way.

Ahaha it was recorded quite long ago, but yeah

you know i only upload it when i have the feel to, right? XD

This song titled Comfort Song sang by Yonghwa.

I feel like trying singing this and to comfort you,

yes you, who's now reading this.

Life has its' ups and downs, so stay strong and endure it for now.

Everyone is going to have their so called 'break' in their life.

If you're able to withstand all these hardships now,

i'm pretty sure God would give you back something good in your life.

Show everyone that you're not a weaky! :D

Here, enjoy listening :)

ahyeah

2012-02-06T20:28:00.000-08:00

Second last driving lesson today!

Must do well, karyan!

AHYEAH

A song

2012-02-01T05:04:00.000-08:00

Today's driving lesson is so tiring.

Not physically but mentally.

I got headache every time after the lesson.

However, i'm going to try my very best!

So the reason i blog today is to let you guys hear a song from me.

hehe actually i've recorded it quite long ago but don't

really have the feel to upload it.

Today the mood comes and yeah so it's here.

It's just a short one. The song is titled Everything's Alright sang by IU.

Alright so i'm gonna say the same thing,

be it good or bad, nothing is gonna stop me from singing.

I did not force anyone to listen to it.

Judge me all you want because i don't really mind about that. :)

But to be honest i've put lots effort in recording all the covers i made,

and i only upload it if i personally think it's not bad.

So yeah enjoy listening. c:

that's it!

2012-01-31T05:14:00.000-08:00

How's everyone doing? :)

So the CNY mood has reducing day by day as it's going to end soon.

I had fun for this year CNY to be honest. :D

Nonsense aside, i would like to share some pictures.

My clothes for Day 1. Heh

I only took photo for day 1 lol

sorry because i only take photo when i have the feel to.

So yeahh and yesterday was the day we Hokkien people

called Pai Tin Gong.

I kinda helped to set up all the stuffs. hehe

And yeah of course there will be this three extra large josses every year.

All the foods! I've only eaten the grapes and chicken though. lol

Family enjoying the meal. :)

Got the chance to take a picture of my cousin sister. keke

So overall it was really a great night.

There were fireworks all around the area

but i was too lazy to do recording so..

Alright i'll end all my chinese new year report here. lol

Okay so i've downloaded photoshop and topaz yesterday.

I learned so much skills about it and i love editing so much.

I love it so much, more than you can imagine.

It was hard to make quality pictures of course,

and i faced lots failures but no this would not

bring to me state of giving up.

I'm gonna work my ass of for it!

Ah ya, i had count my total amount for the red pockets money and

it's more than what i expect! It's around RM300.

I thought it'll be around 200 so this is really something to feel happy about!

I have driving lesson tomorrow and i'm feeling a bit dizzy now.

So yeah that's all for today okay.

Sorry for taking up your time and thanks for reading. (:

My baby below will smile at you.

Open house! but..

2012-01-25T17:06:00.000-08:00

I have an open house today!

Not really an open house but i called them to come over.

Liteng,Joeyee,ckm,ying and puisan.

I need just a few friends to be happy. keke

It's something i'm really happy about but..

who knows beast's new single mv is coming out today!

Damnnnn.

It's coming out in 5 hours time from now.

But i'll stay at dad's house for the whole day!

I'm gonna miss all the spazzing time with fellow beauties on tumblr.

But still.. what can i do..

I miss my friends too of course.

but but.. the mv! urghh

Sighs.. guess i have no choice.

Okay so today is chor 4..

and i've been sleeping later and wake up early these few days.

I'm so lack of sleep now to be honest.

But Beast's new song kinda cheered me up.

Yoseob's voice is tender and beautiful.

It's so soothing and comfortable.

I love him till the end of the world.

Check it out here!

I counted my total amount of andpaos money.

It's around 300 but it's going to be used up in the speed of light.

hmm anyway, have fun people!

most importantly is to take care of your health! :)

love.

Happy CNY Eve!

2012-01-22T22:01:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow's Chinese New Year!

How had you guys prepare for it?

Hmm mine is actually quite normal to be honest.

The mood is here of course, but i feel quite normal tho.

Bought few pieces of new clothes.

Did some cleaning in house and most importantly, my room. keke

I had spent so much money these few days!

Gosh i need to control myself.

And i need to save money to buy beast concert dvd.

It's a must to watch. I'm not wasting money. hehe

I've made a new friend on tumblr.

She's from singapore, a chinese,

same age with me and the best thing is she's friendly.

I care for her truthfully and she worry about my problems too.

I'm glad i get to make such internet friend like her. :)

I have one too before this. but really, internet friend is usually

just for a while. which means the relationship wouldn't really last long.

I really wish i could keep our relation good this time. :)

Alright, nonsense aside,

my korean learning is going well too.

Went to eat korean food with puisan the other day at de garden.

I tried Yoseob's favourite ; kimchijigae.

It was delicious of course! hahah

even if it's not but once the thought of it's his fav came across my mind,

it naturally became delicious. lol

sorry for being so biased

Yoseob is too perfect for me.

he tweeted his childhood pictures aww he's so precious.

I love him and his childhood and his everything. lol

okay i should stop fangirling here.

Anyway, changed my footer to my husband, lol.

Lastly, happy cny eve!

Outing

2012-01-15T06:42:00.000-08:00

Had fun hanging out with liteng today!

Bought my new year clothes too. :)

Not going to say more but to fill my blog with photos!

Lol sorry but this was took on the other day.

Saw a hair clip there? Haha yes my hair is being naughty that day D:

With liteng in fitting room. lol

these photos is taken very randomly so we look a little bit.. umm yeah you know

And yes the best thing about today isn't buying new clothes but this!

I bought Beast's dvd. omg <3

The other liteng bought me a puzzle and look, it's done!

I chose the picture myself and i like it a lot. :)

It's now up on my room wall.

Really want to thank liteng for this. my sweetheart.

Went to the Astrolife event the other day.

Took some photo too!

My little cousin sister omg i love her so much.

She had lots fun that day but i was so tired taking care of her.

Really, never underestimate kid's energy.

but i'm not whining though. i love her. :)

Today was a tiring day but also memorable to me.

Actually i'm really tired now and i feel like my brain couldn't function for any longer.

lol that's the reason why you see me writing with this ugly sentences.. ugh

anyway, take care people!

Reading and books

2012-01-11T23:44:00.000-08:00

Ahh so how's everyone doing?

Now that i think about it, this is only my third post for year 2012.

Sorry eh, i think i gotta update more often.

So yeah i had done with the 3 hours driving lesson!

It was fun tbh, but it was tiring.

Not physically, but mentally.

It was easier than what i expect but still, gotta practice more.

Overall, i think driving is fun. The feeling you get when you finally know

how to drive a car really is overwhelming.

And so i'll get my L license now, oh wow how great.

I'm still working on On Rainy Days lyrics.

Ahh damn now that i could read and write korean already

but i still to write more to bring up some improvement.

And yeah! I woke up really early today.

Finally, i did not fail walking up early. lol

I woke up before 8am. And it was really refreshing. I mean the air and all that.

Hmm.. had so much fun with dollars members yesterday.

Chatting with them feel so different since they are all living in western countries.

But they are friendly as well so i kinda feel nice about it.

Days after joining dollars are different from before.

Didn't bother to tell anyone though.

They wouldn't know what i am going through.

I'm doing great everyday. Doing some reading before sleeping

or sometimes i would listen to songs.

I came to this book, chinese book, it was about laws of life.

It's a great book, seriously.

I think people who doesn't love the world, themselves, or everything around them,

should read this kind of book.

It teaches you how to be grateful to everything around you,

how to forgive, and look at world at a brighter side.

Like the dollars slogan, 'the world isn't as cruel as you take it.'

Really, to whoever reading this now,

think about everything in your life, it's beautiful.

Though you might see some flaws, but what's the meaning of life

if it's something easy and it follows everything you want it to be?

What i'm trying to say is, love the world and live well.

Though we don't know if dooms day is real or not. lol

Okay so... god i ran out of ideas of my fanfic.

gotta work on it now. byeyeom!

Selca!

2012-01-09T01:24:00.000-08:00

Oooo when was the last time i took a selca?

Lol he told me my photos are all old and i should take some new one.

So yes today, i finally took some.

Lol i dyed my hair so i thought of taking some photos.

How is it? lol i know i have great skill in taking photography.

LOL JOKING. sorry for the self-praising XD

Okay so..

Ahh my days are great!

I'm going for 3 hours driving practice tomorrow.

I really want to get my driving license as soon as possible.

i missed my friends and i hope i could hang out with them as much as i can.

I wanted to wake up early everyday, early as in around 8am,

but it failed everyday. lol

I'll keep trying though. XD

I wish all of you in plkn are doing well everyday too.

I keep thinking about them and getting all worried about their condition.

So yeah i've recorded a few songs too!

I'll upload it next time kay. I'm so lazy.

Hmm actually i was thinking did anyone actually visit my blog?

Though i don't really bother if there will be people reading or not,

but still, sometimes i feel like i'm being all hyper here and there's actually

no one reading. lol it became stupid when i think about it.

But still, this lovely blog of mine, i'll never let it die. :)

It's 2012 now! So i'm basically living everyday like there's no tomorrow.

Everyone, live well!

Happy 2012

2012-01-02T09:58:00.000-08:00

Hey guys Happy 2012!

This is my first post for year 2012.

Ahh sorry i wasn't free enough to make it on the 1st. heh

So.. I spent my last day of 2011 watching mbc gayo daejejun.

I felt great stepping in year 2012 together with Beast. :)

I don't really need to spend it with friends or what.

For me, staying home is still the best.

So... year 2011 has come to the end just like that.

It was tough year though.

It was a year that i had experienced so much meaningful things,

it was a year that has changed me to a more mature-thinking person.

Year 2011 taught me so much valuable lessons in life.

And yes, i'm going to talk about things i feel glad that happened in 2011.

I'm not going for an order, just randomly writing out.

First, i'm really happy that i became good friends with liteng.

She's a very lovely friend, and i had fun being with her.

Not forgetting Ckm and Seow, spending almost the whole year spazzing Beast

with me in the classroom.

Honestly, i feel really grateful to have both of them to talk about Beast with me.

I was really happy all the time when we talked about them.

Though 2011 was filled with spm,

but those sweet memories contained in it are undeniable.

Those times we spent eating in the class when teacher is not around.

And of course, that time when we got caught by Pn.Chan. XD

Hah, it was so fun thinking back about it now.

Also, my relation with puisan is getting better within year 2011.

That was something which i felt grateful too.

We're actually very compatible and i feel really nice to spend time with her.

Hmm.. to think back about it now, makes me feel really sad to leave all of those behind.

Like, we will never experience days like going to school,

meet friends, have fun, go home, doing homework and so.

I don't miss subjects and teachers of course,

all i do miss is those times we spent with friends.

And so now, it's 2012.

We're getting nearer to death, aren't we? lol

I don't actually believe totally in dooms day, but anyhow,

it is possible, isn't?

Still, we will have to live our life like normal, not knowing about the future.

Whatever it is, if it's real, i still hope 2012 will be a great year for me.

It may ends up tougher, but i guess i will grow stronger, too, to overcome it, right?

I don't really have new year's resolution.

Because life isn't something you can control.

And new year's resolution isn't something unchangeable.

We'll have different resolution everyday, that's what i believe.

So.. yeah. Wish everyone a happy new year,

and be a better person and live your life well without any regrets.

Life isn't as cruel as you take it. Stay bright, people. :)

Go Deep

2011-12-28T07:26:00.000-08:00

Is the world you see reality?

If so, is reality the truth?

How sad it could be

2011-12-26T02:25:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to say,

the list of Beast concert tour next year was out.

And the reason why i am here,

is that Malaysia is not in the list.

Yes, not in the list.

Do you know how sad it could be?

I'm expecting the concert since last year.

I'm being all excited about the concert since last year.

And now, BAM!

They are not coming to Malaysia.

I find it hard to accept first when i get to know this news.

But then now,

i have cooled down, and think about it,

what can i do?

Being all sad would not help to bring them here.

Sighs. Just take it as i didn't know they will be having a concert from the start.

And get used to not seeing idols in real life.

I'm able to accept it already.

I keep telling myself

'Its okay la. Don't see don't see lo. There will still be a chance in the future.'

The matter is when will this chance come and how long do i need to wait for it.

I'm sad. Really. You couldn't imagine how sad it is.

I told Ckm about it. She's sad too of course.

First, the list is not confirmed yet.

So i told her to think positively and maybe Msia is in it.

But i texted her after the list is confirmed,

telling her Msia is not in the list.

She didn't reply me.

I know it would be hard for her since she don't get to see suju during the MOA concert.

And now, even Beast, she couldn't watch them live too.

I'm sad but she will be even sadder.

Sighs. Why. I don't blame anything about this.

Its just that i hate myself. I don't know but i just hate myself.

Being all sad but still, what can i do about it. I can't help it.

Just forget about it la. That's all i can do.

Thinking it wisely, it is a good thing actually.

At least i don't need to worry about the money i need to spend on the concert right.

And i can use this money that i expected to use on the concert,

to buy Beast Airline DVD.

I keep finding excuses for myself not to be sad.

Hmm. I didn't know it would be this sad though.

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-25T17:50:00.000-08:00

It's the Christmas morning!

I woke up quite early. Heh

Had fun spending Christmas Eve with ckm and Puisan yesterday.

Though it was a little bit tiring but really, it was funnnn.

It has been a long time since we shopped like there's no tomorrow. lol

Yesterday was my Undang test so after i finished it we went to eat.

Anyway, I PASSED.

Hahahahah. Is it something i should be THAT happy about? lol

Whatever it is, i'm still happy. :)

So after taking our 'breakfast' which was around 12 something,

we went to The Store to accompany Puisan buying formal wears for her office job.

I bought a new tee and also, the most satisfying, a jacket!

It was so nice i couldn't stop myself from buying it.

But i had spent so much money yesterday.

I feel really guilty about it. Hurr ;__;

Then we went back to Puisan's house to chill a little,

and headed out to Jusco.

Hanging everywhere...

After that went to ckm's house.

Lol it was fun how we can talk about kpop stuff for hours.

We are not stupid for talking about people who doesn't even know we exist,

but we love them so much that we enjoyed every little thing about them.

It's something you people who doesn't have an idol wouldn't know.

For dinner, i went to Puisan house to have fried rice.

It was so nice! But the damn chillies are so friggin spicy. lol

We also took a walk at pasar malam then Puisan fetched me back to my house.

She came inside and chit-chated for a while.

It was a longgggg day. :DD

Today i'll be going with Liteng. No shopping today or else i'll broke.

Just gonna accompany her to buy new clothes. It's okay though :D

I love seeing people buy things because the satisfaction which you can clearly see

on their face brings you happiness.

SO BYE.

Breakfast with Dad and last but not least,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

New!

2011-12-22T00:02:00.000-08:00

Ohh i'm back.

I'm done with painting my room! keke

I took four days to paint my whole room.

It was really tiring since no one helps me. :c

I got muscles pain all that but that's not going to bring me down!

I insisted to paint though.

And today's the last day of painting!

Which means my room are now all new and bright and white and bla bla.

I feel real great looking at my brand new room now.

I'm doing this because it represent a new start!

I'm going to leave old things and start anew.

I'm preparing for new year also.

Christmas is just 2 more days from now!

So are you going to celebrate? lol

It's snowing at Korea. hmm i hope we have snow here in this country.

Going to hang out with ckm and phooisan this saturday after my undang test.

Nom nom. i'm so hungry. i'm eating like a pig now. haha

Anyway, Beast Airline DVD is going to release soon!

omg seriously, i would be able to buy it right. Right? :c

But it's actually okay even if i don't buy.

I'm going to their concert around February next year.

So.. it doesn't matter actually.

And also, i'm going to Aunt's house for tonight's dinner!

Today is the day.. The day we eat Tangyuan and all that right.

lol what is it called in english by the way.

Okay i'm done eating.

Got to go. I wanted to change my footer but damn photobucket for the maintenance.

Bbyong~

Thoughts

2011-12-13T20:10:00.000-08:00

Am watching Flower Boy Ramyun Shop lately.

It's a nice romance comedy drama. :D

The main actor, Jung Il Woo is really goodlooking.

I dont know. He has such fair skin.

I'm not really into him but his appearance is really undeniable.

Btw, Jung Il Woo the left one.

Sighs. Health problems recently, again.

Sometimes i feel really sick of it.

I don't even want to give a damn about it.

But it's really bothering me.

Hope it'll get well soon though.

Now that SPM had ended, i don't feel like thinking about anything anymore.

Lol, it's like i don't feel like using my brain anymore.

All i want is to stay at home everyday, surfing net,

looking at stuffs i like.

I'm so lazy to do anything else.

I remember i said i will take my car license as soon as possible after spm.

But now i'm really lazy and out of the mood to do it.

Why am i like this.

I guess it's because i'm lack of too many things.

Hmm nevermind, forget about it.

Things inside me are really hard to understand if i tell out.

Anyway, i hope i can clear up my thoughts as soon as possible. :')

New Look

2011-12-05T01:35:00.001-08:00

I give my blog a new look again!

Hmm i don't want it to look so dull.

So i changed those colours to some more cheerful one.

This is my second update since the last day of SPM.

Haha. I'm enjoying everyday now so i was so lazy to update.

But this lovely bloggie that has followed me for so long,

i can't just leave it right? Heh.

Nothing much these days.

All i did is just doing my job as the internet's best friends. Lol

Yes i go on tumblr, facebook, tweet everyday.

That was all i do.

I seriously love life like this.

I can do anything i want without needing to think about studies.

Hahah. Who doesn't like life like this.

And the most important is that i can watch Beast stuff like no limit!

Ahh i love these humans too much. Can't help it.

Followers are now more than 200. Wow.

Thinking back when i just started,

even just one more follower followed me

i feel so happy as if i can fly. Hah

Now the followers keep increasing but i feel.. normal.

Lol. Bad eh?

Anyway, i'm so free yet so busy.

I actually have a lot of things to be done but i'm just so lazy.

Mentioning just the major one, Driving license.

Ahhh i want it so badly but i'm so lazy to do anything about it.

I wanted to call her! omg

I had crazy dreams recently about her.

I wanted to know how is she doing.

But it feels so awkward to just call her like that.

Anyhow, i will still give her a call.

Why does it need so much of courage just to call her. Hah

Its not like i'm.. okay fine.

But honestly, i have been thinking,

will liking boys love make you not straight also?

Hahahahahah funny. Bbyong!

It has comes to the end

2011-11-30T05:45:00.001-08:00

SPM ENDED

Yes freaking SPM just fucking ended. lol

Actually it isn't that nice as what i expect it to be.

Of course i'm happy,

but it just feels like normal. Hahah

The only thing different is i feel less burden on my shoulder.

But lol seriously,

high school just ended like this.

When i was doing the last paper today,

i thought about all those days back then during primary school

and when i was in form 1.

Thinking about it,

i suddenly feel weird for ending high school.

Its not like i love high school but look,

my life has been filled with school all these years.

But now there will be no more school days for me.

No more wearing uniform,

no more waking up at 6am,

no more going to the familiar place called school.

I feel kinda empty honestly.

But I feel great too!

It is just that i'm not used to this kind of life yet.

Keke but i know i'll get used to it and enjoy every second of it.

I'm really really sleepy now.

Throughout the whole spm i didn't actually get enough sleep everyday.

But i have so much to do. :\

Anyway, will sleep early though.

And will be seeing the morning sunlight shines into my room tomorrow.

Aww this is the life i have been waiting for for years.

bbyong!

I love them, till the very end.

2011-11-24T05:48:00.001-08:00

Today, yes today.

The 24th November 2010.

The day that Beast won the Artist Of The Year award.

It means a lot to me.

But the very first thing,

is to let those who looked down on them back then when they just debut,

they are not and NEVER a recycled group.

They always try their best and give their all in achieving their dream.

Even though I cant confirm that they are the best,

but amount of hard works they have done will not be lesser than any other group.

For me, they are the best.

I'm so touched that they won this great award.

It can gives them strength to carry on everything in their life.

It let them know how much we, beauties love them.

It let them know that their hard work and everything they have done are worth it.

If you watch those videos of their pre-debut days,

and you figured out how hard those days was to them,

and how hard they work to reach where they are now,

it's really, really touching.

They are my inspiration.

Looking at them,i gain strength to continue my path.

I need them in my life.

They never fail in making us feel like we're the happiest person in the world.

They care and love us like we're gold, like we're princess.

I feel so glad for discovering these awesome people.

I feel so proud for becoming one of those who love them.

I love them, till the end of my life.

cant think

2011-11-18T01:36:00.001-08:00

Am seriously going crazy of dooseob.

Read couples of fanfiction about them and i liked it so much. Hoo

But hey, four days of spm have passed just like that.

It was quite fast actually.

So far still doing okay. Just okay.

Don't have confidence to get an A for malay though.

It was harder than what i expect. Sighs.

Recorded few songs but not gonna upload it today.

Tomorrow maybe.

So.. yeah what am i gonna say.

Ahh so what kind of feel between us now? lol

I find it funny sometimes.

To be honest, i don't feel sad for leaving high school, at all.

I even wanted it to end as fast as possible.

Seriously, one fact of me here,

i really love freedom.

I love living free. Free as in like i would not need to care

for anyone or anything in my life.

I only want me and the world. That's enough.

That's the reason why i said i wanted to be single forever.

I don't think i like having a family.

To achieve my dream, i need to be single.

Not like i wanted to have a partner in life that much also.

That day i heard the conversation between my grandma and her friend.

Grandma was talking about how my uncle, his son bought him this and that and all.

Then her friend say that was good.

Then she added 'really,how pity are old people if they dont have any child'

At that moment, i thought about it too.

Yes, it would be pity of course.

But it is not something bad or sad though.

Because i'm going to be one of those old people, you know.

But it's okay. If i really get to achieve my dream,

i wouldn't mind dying all alone.

But who knows, i might meet someone who changes my thought in the future, right?

I'm still here stuck with freaking high school life.

I will be meeting more people when i'm out.

So..

But sometimes i would think maybe i'm just finding an excuse.

An excuse for myself to feel better for the thought of no on actually would like me.

At least that's what i think. lol

Hmm whatever it is,

there's no use to think so much now.

Just let it be and continue walking the life you're walking now.

And do what you should be done now.
Because this is what you call life, am i right?

First Day

2011-11-14T05:40:00.001-08:00

Today is the first day of the SPM examination.

BM paper today.

This is something sad but i have to say this.

I did not do really well for today's paper.

I'm worry if i can get an A for it.

I wanted to get one but sighs. I dont know.

Tomorrow's English.

I wish i could do well of course.

But somehow i have the feel of not doing well tomorrow. lol

I wonder why.

Nowadays i don't even have someone i can really talk to.

Not that i feel lonely but,

i really don't have anyone i can speak what i wanted to let out.

So i guess this is why i like staying at home and avoid all socializing stuff.

'cause i feel as if no one really wants to talk to me.

Sad, eh? Mehh

sighs

2011-11-11T08:11:00.001-08:00

I'm done with my blog header! :D

Aww i'm so happy and satisfied. heh

I love editing so much. Really.

I'm writing this for the header and yeah,

for spm.

Its just two days away from now.

And why don't I feel anything?

Is this something good or bad?

I didn't really study these few days.

And now i'm sleeping this late just because of editing.

Should i just die now? Lol.

I don't know what more.

Its not that i don't care but..

why am i behaving like this?

Hmm i wish this is something good.

When i tell people about this,

most of them say

'Good la, stress also no use. Later forget everything more worse'

I wish this is real. I mean, i hope what they said was true.

Maybe i should just relax, and let it flow.

But maybe, the consequences of behaving this way, will be real bad.

Photography

2011-11-09T02:44:00.000-08:00

So look, SPM starts next monday.

This is so freaking scary.

But honestly, i did not feel scared.

All i feel is just worry.

Should i take this as something good or bad? lol

Anyway, i'm just doing all i could.

I'm not going to be all like

'omg i'm so scared. i'm so stress', all that, no.

Maybe my results will turn out bad, but i'm not going to blame anyone, anything.

Or to feel regret.

I just don't know why am i acting this way. hah

So.. i'm still relaxing now, i guess?

Not really relaxing but just studying slowly.

So as you see today's title is photography.

All of sudden feel like wanna express how much i love photography.

I swear, i'll earn money with my own hands, and buy the first camera in my life.

I never told anyone about how much i actually love photography.

I don't think it is something to brag about.

I don't even have a camera. So i feel like i'm not even qualified to say such words.

I'm going to get my own camera, and capture every beautiful moments.

Capture the beautiful world and everything i love.

I got my Polaroid photo today. It was the ranger's farewell party.

Though i didn't attend, but i got one.

This is my first time looking at a polariod photo.

And i have to say, I freaking love it.

I freaking love polariod photo.

Middle

2011-11-04T09:46:00.000-07:00

Ahh i have already started to miss you.

Seriously what is this.

I don't understand everything between us.

Look,

the feels between us is like something not less than friend,

but at the same time not more than friend. lol

i know its complicated though.

Sighs. After spm and i'll make everything clear.

Actually at this moment i'm waiting for some downloads to be done,

so just came here and... write out some thoughts? lol

But i'm so freaking sleepy now.

I wish i could let you know how hateful are you.

No one likes you please. Ugh.

The one who always thought no one likes her, actually has people who likes her.

But you, the one who thought you have many friends around you,

actually have no one.

You're such a poor thing.

I'm sad that i had spent my school life with you.

To be honest, you'll never get to make any true friend if you continue being this way.

And that one day when you think about it,

you'll definitely regret. Trust me.

No one brings you into such poor situation but you yourself.

Acting all high and mighty. Go ahead. And see how long can you survive this way.

Seriously, what's so hard for putting yourself down and try to mix well with the others?

I don't understand, really.

If you're cheerful, people around you will be happy too.

Don't you think this is like a killing two birds with one stone thing?

Look at you, not smiling even when everyone around you are happy.

Making people feel uneasy around you.

Do you think it is fun? Do you think you're all high classed that way?

lol you're not cool okay. that's sad. upset. and not us, but you.

Please, i wish you could stay happy too.

Change this side of you already.

And you'll definitely get to live a better life.

I would not try to contact you after school ends.

i mean spm.. yeah.

But still, sincerely, i would like to know if you're living happily.

Vanish

2011-10-31T19:34:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wish i could just disappear.

Knowing how little people care about me.

Having so many friends around, yet there are just few who really see you back as friend.

Funny isn't.

Though i don't actually mind about all this,

but still, sometimes it hurts a little when you think about it.

She wrote such a message to me.

I'm really glad that i'm someone important to her.

At least someone really care about my existence.

Sighs this existence thing really could break me down.

She thanked me for bringing joy to her.

She said she'll miss everything between us.

This is something really touching, you know.

I'm feeling so much pain inside but i seriously dislike showing it out.

It makes you feel you're weak. Like you're begging from sympathy.

If i'm always down then i wouldn't be able to see smiles from people around me.

So even if i'm really sick, i still smile and laugh like usual.

Trying to show them I'm really fine.

But wait, i laughed a little inside me when i thought about this-

who actually cares? lol

Look, i was sick and how many of them actually shows that they're worry?

Unlike her, she keep teasing and laughing at me,

but actually was worry and asked me do i feel better with a message.

Just a short message 'feeling better?',

just that, already could heal so much in me.

Not physically, but at least, mentally.

I'm not saying all this to try to act like i'm lonely,

i need friends, i need care, i'm sad that i don't have true friends,

not all this shit.

Just, really, why is the world like this,

why are human being is such sad creature.

This is why sometimes i feel like just vanishing.

And see who will even realize i'm already not here anymore.

This is upsetting, really.

Greatest, Happiest

2011-10-29T08:42:00.000-07:00

Goddamnshit! lol

There was a news about yoseob being cast in Dream High 2.

It has not been confirmed yet but they are considering casting him in it.

This is.. oh my god.

If this is real, then this will be the greatest thing for me in throughout this whole hell year.

Hahahahah seriously, i'm so fucking happy knowing this.

I couldn't imagine watching him in a drama.

oh my god is that real life or just fantasy?

I wish so damn hard that he will be casted.

I waited for so long for him to be in a drama and now, finally.

Plus, it's dream high!

However, i couldn't imagine him having sweet moments with any girl though. lol

Cant choose between Suzy or IU.

But if he's really in, i don't really bother about who's the girl. :D

Anyway, today's Alan brother's wedding!

Ahh after so many years, finally.

I tell you, this couple is the longest couple i've ever know in my life so far.

They started dating since i was just... standard 4 or 5 i guess?

And it was like already.. more than 5 years.

I see how they grow year by year.

And now they are finally married.

Aww, to be honest this is so so so sweet.

Looking at their wedding photos,

the way they smiled at each other,

this is what you call true happiness.

Hey people, do you think dating for more than 5 years is easy?

Lol. If it's not true love it will never gonna last this long.

Sometimes when i think about it,

i really admire this kind of relationship,

and Alan brother.

He proved to me that such a guy like him really do exist in this world,

and such a long-lasting relationship do exist too.

Isn't really sweet?

How i wish i have a guy like him to love me too.

I can't be sure of this but for now at least,

i think Chris sister will be the happiest wife in the world.

With so much caring and loves from Alan brother,

and i know how much he cherish her.

Lol why am i being all emotional here.

Its not like it's my wedding after all. HAHA

But really, i'm feeling this much because i looked at them

from the starting till now.

I'm one of those who witnessed their love journey. lol

Hm, whatever it is, i wish them sincerely,

to stay together forever. Forever.

Getting nearer

2011-10-26T20:18:00.000-07:00

It's getting nearer man..

And yet, i still have time to record songs. lol

god i know i should just die. hah

anyway, i'm kinda satisfied with this time recording.

I finally am brave enough to give you a call yesterday

but damn! you slept. fine.

Ended

2011-10-26T03:17:00.000-07:00

So it has been a full month since my birthday.

Wow but why does it make me feel like it's so fast..

and yet so slow. lol i dont even know.

For all of us who are going to face the damn spm examination,

we don't know how to define time already. Really.

Anyway, just back from Physics tuition.

And today is the last class.

Which means i'll never go there for tuition anymore.

Will never step into that building anymore.

I know i was supposed to feel like 'wow'

but to be frank, i was really happy about it.

There's not even a tiny bit of unhappiness in me.

Look, i can finally end all this damn experiences of taking town bus alone there.

With so many dangerous people around me every single time.

The way the look at you, the feeling when they walk pass you.

All this sicky shit, i can finally leave them.

So why would i feel unhappy for the end of this tuition.

You guys just wouldn't understand how does it actually feel.

I hate school life more than anyone else.

All because of the taking-town-bus life.

Met him today at bus station.

Ahh not bragging but is this something like.. fate?

Hahah damn he's so goodlooking. Really.

I wish i could make friend with him but i dont think i will have any chance for that.

But i believe if we really do have fate, then we'll meet again for sure.

Anyway, it's going to rain soon.

So gotta off.

Guess i should give her a call tonight? Heh

Passion

2011-10-22T21:18:00.000-07:00

Studying now because SPM is so so so near. :\

Just here to share 2 songs. :)

Someday

You Wouldn't Answer My Call

Be it good or bad, my singing passion will never leave me.

Having sore throat few days ago.

I feel useless when i couldn't sing well. lol

so yeah, respect the passion of singing.

Random

2011-10-19T05:22:00.000-07:00

Okay i will just go with some randomness today.

Stop acting mysterious and hide things in front of me because i dislike it a little.
I thought of you a lot today.
What you said today make me feel so curious that i could die from it.
Happy because grandma says i wouldn't need to cook for the whole November.
I wish you could tell me the truth.
I want this damn SPM to end like in a fucking fast speed. lol
I keep thinking funny stuffs between you and me.
I need more Yoseob.
What you left unsaid has make me feel really, really nervous.
That feel towards you is coming back slowly. damn. all because of what you did today.
Please just let me know.
Can we like get closer.
Am i feeling the wrong thing or what. ahh
I need those fanfics to update!!!! i'm dying
Everything you do is like so sticky. It sticks so well in my mind.
I hate guessing.
I'll definitely keep you close to me. dont worry about it :D

Lol i know this is so so so random.

But today i just feel like going random.

I'll get the answer soon right? Right!?

Omg seriously what am i hoping.

Even if i know so what can i do.

I couldn't accept that. Could you?

2nd Anniversary

2011-10-15T19:11:00.000-07:00

So yeah, it has been 2 years since Beast debuted on 16/10/2009.

Happy Beast 2nd Anniversary!

Sad things keep happening to Yoseob and even near such meaningful say.

Look at what he wrote on his fancafe.

As you guys know,
when we first came out from the world, we were called as “recycle idol”.
Old/used idol, recycle idol.. It wasn’t really easy.
It was hard, but that said it wasn’t wrong either. To get used to as “recycle idol”, we made fun of it and laughed it off.
As we look it at now, we probably tried to feed off each other.

We got our strength from you b2uties during our hard days.
When we got our first 1st place, we cried because we were so thankful in bottom of our hearts.
Public Broadcasting Music Show 1st Place, 1st place 3 times in a row. As we grew, we wanted to whine so you could compliment us. In our hearts, b2uties were the big presence. Your presences are really getting bigger than ever!

When people said, if you are going to do fan service like that, you are going get tired.. but I get tried by eating.
Its obvious that when you are hungry, you are suppose to eat and when you are thinking about your fans, you are suppose to express it.
Some b2uties think that I’m going to get hurt somehow, but dont worry about it!
I’m not like a guy who has a heart of kukudas. (Used one of the mention.. plagiarizing)

When we appeared to the stage today, we saw the fan seats that said B E A S T. My eyes and nose hurt atthat moment.
I was so overwhelmed and wanted to cry.
But as you know, when you are singing, you cant cryㅋ
I just stayed calm and did my best on singing!
Its really frustrated that you cant really express enough to say thank you.

Finally, its the 2nd year.
B2uty and Beast Beast and B2uty
Lets get older together..ㅎㅎ

To get older means lets be together forever!
I feel bad when nuna fan sees this
I’m hungry right now..

Ah, Our Korean words are so hard
He… right now.. I’m really sleepy and not really good at writing so I’m done for now.

The things that I wanna say are
sorry, thank you and love you!
Good night!
Credit: Dan
http://twitter.com/canseobforever

When i'm reading this, i seriously feel like want to cry.
See, he's no more the weak and easy got hurt man.
He's now strong and he know how to protect us, beauties from being hurt.
He know we'll be sad if he's not happy.
He tried so hard to put a smile on his face yesterday during the Asia Song Festival.
He deleted all his tweet just so that we beauties wont get hurt from reading all the anti's message.
Although i have only liked them for a year but my love towards them is deep enough to make me cry.
After knowing what happen to yoseob i have an urge to cry, seriously.
But as what other beauties said, we have to be happy for them.
They sure didn't want us to feel sad for them.
And yeah,

this actually is a great present for them.

Beauties sat and make BEAST during Asia Song Festival yesterday.

They felt very happy knowing how much beauties love them.

And i'm proud to say i'm a Beauty too.

I know they cherish their fans more than any other group because they used to be

called as the 'recycled group' last time.

They were worried if they will be successful and gain fans or not.

This is why they cried so hard when they first won on Music Core.

They have worked so hard to improve,

to show they best to their fans.

This group, they have more patience, more will power to achieve something

because they have overcome so many obstacle to reach what they are today.

There's no reason for people to hate them.

If you really watched them from the day they debut and all their shows,

i believe you would know how we beauties feel about them.

These six guys are strong, and they love their fans a lot

because we beauties, are the bone to them,

supporting them.

I couldnt really express how much i actually like them.

All i could say is that they are the best in my heart.

Please continue being six together and being Beast.

Fresh!

2011-10-13T21:04:00.000-07:00

As you can see I changed the header and made a new chatbox!

Ah finally. This lovely bloggie of mine finally look a little bit fresher.

Teehee.

Today is the graduation day.

But i didn't attend. Heh

I regret nothing okay.

People keep saying that its once in a lifetime.

lol i don't need this once-in-a-lifetime thingy.

Anyway, saw the drawing the the side?

Ahaha, dooseob. yes dooseob

That drawing do not belongs to me.

But it's just so nice so..

Yeah actually i'm rushing now cause going to tuition later.

So that's it okay. Bbyong!

what's in my mind

2011-10-12T06:52:00.000-07:00

Seriously, i would be happy if you tell me

straight away that you have special feeling to me.

lol but i'm not even sure about that.

Its just me who feel so.

Maybe i've been feeling a wrong feel all this while?

Whatever it is, i really do hope you will admit.

Though the special feeling in me towards you is slowly fading away,

but i still wish that you didn't.

I think i found the right phase yesterday when i was doing some researching.

The right phase to describe how are we treating each other-

'we're just having the feeling of wanted to be with each other all the time,

wanted to be close and near, but definitely not love between us'

So i guess this is it? hah

Its not something big deal though.

I just feel great that i wouldn't need to doubt if i'm a normal or not.

But why do feel so weird sometimes? hahah

Anyway, i'm a hardcore dooseob shipper now.

Confirmed. lol

I dont know. I like thinking that they're actually real.

So SPM is like around one month from now.

I'm still quite relaxing everyday.

I don't know why am i behaving like that also.

Somehow i just don't feel nervous about it at all.

This is bad, i know.

But what can i do.

The nearer it comes,

the more i feel like not caring.

why am i like that. ugh

I'm really worry if my results turn out like shit.

At times like this,

i really do pray hard.

Its not like i'm religious but at times like this,

the only thing i can try believing is God.

It's just like a wall, for me to lean against it so that i feel something is there for me,

making me feel a little bit more secure.

Sometimes i really do hope God can hear me,

and helps me out.

ME

2011-10-09T07:19:00.000-07:00

I'm now a hardcore Dooseob shipper.

Lol. I can't help myself too.

I love them being together so much.

And wish them to be real. :D

I guess i read too much of dooseob fanfic lately?

Hahahahah

Yeah so please support them teehee

I should start saving Dooseob pictures from now onwards.

Its.. so beautiful.

omg what's wrong with me okay bye

Dream

2011-10-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

I have a weird yet sweet dream yesterday.

In my dream, there was this one guy,

who i've never met in my life so far.

I can't exactly remember how he looks like.

But i can tell that i like his appearance a lot.

Just.. based on how i feel when i'm dreaming.

In my dream, he's my boyfriend.

lol i know it sounds funny but this dream really give me a special feeling.

Thinking back about it now, i felt really happy being with that guy.

I dont know, but.. i'm.. really happy.

Happy as in i didnt laugh all the time.

But deep down in my heart, i feel really blissful.

Ahh how am i going to explain that feel. lol

Nvm.

We went to a few places and of course,

one of the place that i wanted to go the most.

Beach.

We walked slowly on the side of the beach.

The nice breeze..

Everything is so beautiful.

This is first of me dreaming a guy is with me.

Funny eh.

Whatever it is,

I really wish i could dream of this same person tonight.

Its.. really weird.

Is this what you call jealousy?

2011-10-06T00:21:00.000-07:00

I think i finally understand what it means by jealousy.

I couldn't look at you and her talking so happily.

I feel as if my eyes are burning. lol

But seeing you smiling so happily, i felt happy too. :D

Better than the you yesterday. So dull -.-

I wanted to tell you all this.

But can i? Nah, after spm maybe.

Always wondering if you feel the same as me.

Hmm but nothing much. Not like i really in love with you.

Okay.

So I'm quite happy with my results.

bm-75

bi-72

mm-93

am-51

sjr-65

pm-83

bio-55

che-66

phy-61

this result is really funny actually.

See, i got 3As 3Bs and 3Cs.

Aahahah but its already not bad. :D

Anyway, sang a song and feel like sharing.

Dont know if it is bad or what.

lastly, i would like to say

I LOVE YANGYO lol

HEREEE

2011-10-02T07:04:00.000-07:00

So as i said, here some pictures :DD

My first birthday cake.

Lol yeah i celebrated for the first time with my mother.

This was my second birthday cake. HAHA

Celebrated for the second time with friends.

Had a lot of fun!

Joeyee and ckm. :D

lol Liteng, who dressed like an artist on that day.

Haha they were actually acting ask paparazzi taking pictures of Liteng.

Crazy eh.

That was the best time at kbox!

I've been going to kbox for so many times,

but this time was the best, seriously.

I felt so grateful of everything on that day.

The surprise, the cake..

and everything you guys did for me.

I don't actually know how to express by words,

but deep in me, i really do feel happy and thankful :)

And people!

I will work hard!

I wish to have support from you guys.

Of course, i'm here to support each and every of you.

Please believe in yourself and make your dreams come true!

And yeah, i'm not faking.

-.-

I wonder

2011-09-30T21:42:00.000-07:00

I wonder if i'll be able to achieve my dream or not.

Seriously, i really wanted my dream to come true.

I'm already preparing now.

I wish i could really do it.

This dream of mine, i wouldn't mention.

I'll work hard! :D

Yesterday night i had crazy thoughts about her!

God, please help me.

I'm serious going to be crazy if i continue thinking all that.

I almost called her yesterday.

Luckily i didn't.

Because its really weird if i call her at that time.

But.. i dont know. i just feel like listening to her voice and...

AH. I'm gonna stop all this.

I'm going to care less about her.

Guess i should stop getting close with her.

Okay, i have to do this.

Nae Saengil ^___^

2011-09-27T04:49:00.000-07:00

Ah what!? I didn't even update on my birthday? lol

Yesterday was my birthday and yeah, i'm happy of course.

Celebrated 2 times this year.

Celebrated with mom's side family on the 24th.

Had an outing with friends on the 25th.

I'll update pictures soon. teehee

Was really fun hanging out with them that day.

Had really great time and feel so comfortable.

Haha and the best thing was receiving angpau as present.

Hahah seriously, for family giving cash is the best choice.

Got quite a lot but i had already spent almost half of it.

Ah i know this is not good but still.. :\

One more thing here,

I'm waiting for my brother's present. Heh

It's a must for YOU to give me present!

I'll tell YOU what i want xD

Ckm, zhenying, ying shared a present for me.

It was all fooooood.

THANKS :D

Then Jade gave me a cup with Chopper printing.

Its really nice. ;___;

When i was taking out that present i was like

wow this is really nice. and i used it right on that day. Hah.

Okay so let's talk a bit about exam marks.

Its nothing to be proud of but i don't really mind to share.

Hmm.

I got 93 for modern maths which i dont really satisfied but still happy :D

65 for history. This one i really felt grateful. Hah at least it's a B.

What else..

Other subject haven't really got the full marks yet but so far

i think i had done quite well. lol

Watching 2pm show now.

Seriously, if you want to have a great laugh you can try watching it too.

^___________^

Saengil chukae! to myself

GOD I'M HAPPY

2011-09-22T01:27:00.000-07:00

I really love days like this.

I'm so happy. :)

Currently watching Dream High.

Last year's drama and i'm only watching it this year. lol

Okay i know i'm late.

This drama makes me likes singing even more.

Today's conversation was kinda... unusual.

Anyway, it was a fun day.

Laughed a lot with them. :D

I wish i could stay with you all the time.

I wanted to ask you about why do you nod your head

when she talk about that statement. lol

Ah, you did so many things which would lead me to misunderstanding.

I dont know but i can feel a thing with you.

Though dont really clear what thing it is. Hah

Okay, just really wish to be with you cause it's happy.

Got my Physics Paper 1 result and it was 32 over 50.

Not bad eh. Hah. I never thought it would turns out better

than what i imagined.

Not a great marks but i still felt happy.

Okay gotta upload some pictures so that my blog dont look so dead.

But hah, did my blog ever look dead?

I keep it cheerful enough. :D

Few pictures taken on Mooncake Festival. :)

This is so cute. ~.~

Lol look at the female Angry bird. The eyebrow is so seducing.

Little cousins playing candles.

The lantern was made by younger cousin.

Stuffs for praying.

I love her the most my sweetheart.

lol cousin

FOOD

And this was taken from my dad's house. Its a LOVE shape. awww

Okay thats all then bbyong!

2011-09-19T03:47:00.000-07:00

Buddies!

I'm back. Hahah

I said i'll be back on 20th but i came back on 19th instead.

LOL Just one more freaking day to go..

So i just drop by to say this.

Damn BIOLOGY.

Haha. I'm so lazy to bother if i will fail or not.

I dont know.

And yeah, the main reason i blog today is for this

110918 in-chon airport yo-seop from bball on Vimeo.

Just watched it and i was all like

'omg why the hell are you so cute?'

lol and i smile like a insane human being when watching.

I just can't get over how cute he is.

I must post it here so that i can view it back someday.

Who knows. Someday, maybe few years later. :D

I love this cutie so much.

Seriously, i wanted to ask God how he create this human being.

So lovely. ;___;

Okay guess its time to go.

Biology time. D:

the day after tomorrow

2011-09-05T02:31:00.000-07:00

Trial is on wednesday!

It finally comes. Gotta face it.

But i'm not scared :)

Though i didn't really study, lol,

but i just don't feel any nervousness in me. Yet, maybe.

Hah. So this will be my last post before trial starts!

I'll be back on the 20th September!

Good luck and all the best, loves. :D

Hope Is A Dream That Doesn't Sleep

2011-09-03T03:01:00.000-07:00

It doesn’t matter if I’m lonely. Whenever I think of you
A smile spreads across my face.
It doesn’t matter if I’m tired. Whenever you are happy
My heart is filled with love.
Today I might live in a harsh world again.
Even if I’m tired, when I close my eyes, I only see your image.
The dreams that are still ringing in my ears
Are leaving my side towards you.
Everyday my life is like a dream.
If we can look at each other and love each other
I’ll stand up again.

To me, the happiness of those precious memories
Will be warmer during hard times.
For me, hope is a dream that never sleeps.
Like a shadow by my side you always
Quietly come to me.
To see if I’m hurt, to see if I’m lonely everyday
With feelings of yearning, you come to me.
Even if the world makes me cry, I’m okay.
Because you are always by my side.
Like dust, will those memories change and leave?
I’ll keep smiling to ease my heart.
Everyday my life is like a dream.
If we can look at each other and love each other
I’ll stand up again.
To me, the happiness of those precious memories
Will be warmer during hard times.
For me, hope is a dream that never sleeps.
No matter how many times I stumble and fall
I’m still standing like this.
I only have one heart.
When I’m tired you become my strength.
My heart is towards you forever.
So I swallowed the hurt and grief.
I’ll only show you my smiling form.
It doesn’t even hurt now.
I’ll always hold on to the dreams I want to fulfill with you
I’ll try to call for you at the place I cannot reach
I love you with all my heart.

Credits

English Lyrics: cookiemonkey of princekyu

that one moment

2011-09-02T08:22:00.000-07:00

I'm not developing special feeling towards her. really.

Today when i told her i wanted to shift my place and accompany the other person,

she said 'cannot' quickly.

i can hear there was no hesitation in her answer.

She said it with a serious tune and laughed after that. Hah.

I was really happy for that.

I wonder why though.

I guess i was feeling happy because i feel like

'ahh, so there's also people who care for my existence'

Yeah. I feel great that i'm needed.

I feel nice that she wanted me to be with her.

Hah. This make me feel like i belonged to somewhere, someone.

She's really a special one.

I wanted to ask her,

i wanted to know, too,

whether she likes me or not.

As a friend, of course.

At night, she called my house phone.

This call from her was really an unexpected one. lol

As usual i was surfing net..

then my grandma called me telling me there's a call.

at that time i was thinking 'who would it be calling my house phone'

The moment i pick up the phone and she spoke,

just that millisecond,

there was a little happy mood in me.

This is the second of her calling me.

She called my handphone for the first time.

Calling to my home feels..

feels even closer. yeah, closer.

Edit :D

2011-08-30T00:23:00.000-07:00

Made an edit. :D

I feel great everytime i'm done with an edit.

That feeling of satisfaction, i wonder if you'll understand. Heh

Anyway, here :)

Editing is something really meaningful to me.

"Your existence, is the best gift to me"

Next week!

2011-08-29T02:03:00.000-07:00

SPM trial is just next week!

Ahh, so time really do pass fast.

Hmm what do i feel now?

Stress, a little bit.

But that lazy attitude in me is still here.

Strong presence.

Anyway, i will still blog.

This dear bloggie of mine,

i wouldn't let it down.

Because it has 4 years story of mine.

Yeah.. so,

still the same,

i haven't cover up any subject yet.

I dont know why but this line often pops out from my mind,

'Ah, its just trial. Take it easy.'

I guess this is the reason why i'm still here blanking out?

Hah. I can't wait no more for SPM end.

Its Raya holiday now.

And trial is just after this 9 days holiday.

I missed her.

I don't even know why.

I'm not developing special feeling to her,

i'm not lesbian. lol

But i don't deny that i actually like her.

I don't know. Sometimes when i look at her,

I'll.... what. Ah, whatever it is,

I can look at her for a really long moment.

Maybe its all about envious.

She's just someone i personally think is impressive.

Or i can say i adore her.

I would spend my time with her if i can.

People say when two person got closer,

they will slowly develop uninterested feeling to each other.

As in when they are not they close,

they would feel 'ah, how nice is her/him..' or something.

Once they got close and being together for a long time,

they would not feel special anymore.

But is this true?

Hmm.. If it is true,

then i would rather not to stay so close to her.

If i can, i would keep our friendship as special as possible.

For a really, really long time.

7 Years Of Love

2011-08-23T04:51:00.000-07:00

We met for seven years
No one knew we would say goodbye this easily
However we still separated
With the memories we built for a long time, now gone
How did we at such a young age
Meet each other, I don’t even remember how
Difficult for us to handle the maps of our changing selves
They said saying goodbyes are painful
But I didn’t even have time to feel that
I just thought this is the way staying composed
But I cried
Time passed it gave me a simple yearning
Different from what my mind was seeing
At first friends then next as lovers
We said we’d stay as friends even if we separated
During those 3 years spent alone
We contacted each other sometimes
Even if I met someone else again
Even I loved again
Whenever I was sad I would call you without a word just tears falling
You have to meet a good person
I thought in my heart without any words
I asked if you still liked me without any thought hoping you say it back
I know
We had the most pure love
Back then we thought that kind of love couldn’t be done again se we saved it in out memories
Often I feel a cold feeling from you
But now I know you can not ask anything
“I’m getting married” is what you said to me
After that for a long time I was speechless
Then I cried they were your last words to me
For the only words I wanted to hear was that 'I love you'

Geu saram ;That Person

2011-08-20T05:05:00.000-07:00

That person was the one who made me smile
That person was the one who made me cry
With her warm lips to me
That person found my heart I can’t erase that love
I can’t forget that love
That person was like my oxygen
That person is now leaving
That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
I loved you, and I love you
That’s why I have no choice but to let you leave… my love
Even if my heart becomes tattered
Even if that memory pains me all day
The tears that person sheds
Hurts me even more
That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
Instead of tears, instead of pain
Forget about me and live happily… my love
When our lives are over and we close our eyes,
Then remember me one time
That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
I loved you, and I love you
That’s why I have no choice but to let you leave… my love

Credit : koreanlyric.wordpress.com

how are you doing?

2011-08-15T02:06:00.000-07:00

Hey, so how are you doing?

Half of this month passed.

But still, i haven't done studying any subjects yet.

I know it's already very late to say all this now.

Hmm, but somehow,

i just don't feel like pushing myself.

And i'm not stress anymore.

I don't even know why.

I just feel like letting eveything goes as it flow.

I'm not going to think what will the result turns out.

Maybe people would say that i'm not trying hard.

But yeah, i know myself.

Today when i was taking bath,

i thought a lot about my future.

One leads to another,

I start thinking about what do i want to achieve.

What actually is my last goal?

And i finally got it.

I never thought i would want to achieve that goal.

What i mean is,

before this, i never even have a thought about that.

And i don't know how this conclusion was made.

Hah. See. Sometimes things can just turns out well naturally.

Honestly, just the thought of knowing myself have a goal to be achieved,

feels really great.

Its like something is there, waiting for me to approach.

And it gives me meaning for me to continue living.

By having this goal i really wanted to achieve,

i feel as if i live for something.

I don't think about what's going to happen for every tomorrow anymore.

I don't doubt about my life anymore, whether i will live well or not.

Hmm.

So i only want to tell anyone who's reading this,

Having a goal really feels great.

Think about something you really wanted to have.

Even if it's something big or it may sounds hard to be achieved,

don't think it is impossible.

Do not feel scared to dream.

People are allowed to dream.

And whether this dream is going to com true or not,

the posibility is in your palm.

You're the one who can make your dream come true.

So, just go for it. :)

那个男孩

2011-08-11T07:20:00.000-07:00

我也不懂我为什么会那么得像见到他.

真的很奇怪.

连他的名字也不知道,

但他那特别的脸孔,

真的很吸引.

第一次早上一起床就会想到别人.

还要是个不认识的人.

多奇怪啊.

每次看到他,

重视会忍不住地,笑出来.

心里的感觉,真的很好. :D

Time

2011-08-06T23:43:00.000-07:00

Look. Its already August.

Trial is just one month away from now.

i have been holding my book since 2 hours ago,

but nothing of it goes into my mind.

I'm so fed up.

Sometimes i really feels like give up on everything.

Hmm.

For now, i just let it be.

I'll study when i want.

I don't feel like forcing myself anymore.

Let it goes naturally.

I know if i'm like this my result will turns out bad.

But i wouldn't regret.

Because this is what i have decided.

Sighs. I don't know how.

Seriously, what is this life.

fml.

heh

2011-07-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

Yeah just here to say that my computer is back.

Its back. but its so empty right now.

Gonna download back all the program i need..

Ahh i'm feeling dizzy right now @_@

Okay.. whatever it is,

please have a search on :

2ne1 - Ugly

Miss A - Love Alone

I'm currently so in love with both of this songs.

And watching City Hunter now.

This movie changed the way i think about Lee Minho.

Hahah. He's not that bad though. xD

Okay thats all. Bye ~

its getting nearer

2011-07-20T17:38:00.000-07:00

Wow. It seems like my previous update was quite long ago.

Hahaha. Ahh i feel so sorry for my bloggie.

But what to do,

trial is getting nearer already.

So i don't think i can update so often now.

I don't have enough time to do my revision.

However, i have started my revision. :D

This is something i should be happy about.

Hmm. Because once you have started, the study feel is there.

And you wouldn't feel so lazy to touch books anymore.

Though i really don't have confidence to score well in trials or even in SPM,

but i'll still do my best.

But to be frank, i'm really scared.

I'm scared if i couldn't do well and the results turns out worse than what i expect.

I'm scared i'll disappoint my dad.

And my future life, how will it be?

So much to think.

It's just so near now. About 50 days to trial.

Can i make it?

Looking at everyone around me trying so hard,

especially her.

She told me she will finish all her studying next week, all.

As in all subjects. and the whole August she's just gonna do revision,

as in exercise.

She's so great. But she told me all these making me feel more bad.

Ahhh. i just don't know what to do.

May god bless me.

-.-

2011-07-15T01:24:00.000-07:00

So i came to update because i am too bored right now.

I'm so sleep actually.

But i'm loading so many videos.

Gotta watch all before i go to take a nap.

Today's weather is really great.

It's so chill.

This kind of weather would be really suitable to have a evening sleep.

I'm suppose to be going to tuition at this time.

I didn't go because the haze out there is so terrible.

I'm worry if my health will be affected if i inhale too much of this dusty air.

So... i used this lame reason to not attend tuition.

Hahaha.

Why is life so hard.

I have been thinking about studies lately, again.

About which colleges should i go in and what subject should i take.

I'm worry if i'll choose a wrong subject.

I think so much until my dad helped me.

He gave some useful advices and it opens me so much.

So i feel better after hearing what he said.

He's such a great dad.

The best dad in this world, for me.

Oh yah, so i didn't get selected for National Service.

It's something i should be really happy about but i feel normal.

Hmm. Not to say that i don't feel happy about it at all.

Yeah I am happy of course.

I don't need to waste my time there and get trained like hell.

This is great but i didn't feel extremely relieved that i wasn't chosen.

If i was chosen, i would feel normal.

I wouldn't complain that i don't want to go or what.

Because it would be fun, somehow. LOL

Hmm. But not getting chosen is still better than getting chosen.

Should really thank god about it. :)

I love them more than anything.

My dad say that i will forget about them once i start working.

I wonder if i will.

But i'm so deeply in love with them right now.

Would it be that easy to forget them, completely?

I don't think so.

Because i would find them for sure. Just this one day, i will be talking to them face to face.

Though it may be just telling them that i like them a lot, and go.

That would be more than enough. :D

When

2011-07-10T19:25:00.000-07:00

Sorry for updating late~

Hmm Yeah so i changed my blog url.

From bunnysbeloved to wherewhatwhen26

Not sure if people will be informed or not.

Dont care since i'm not writing for people to read.

Okay..

Firstly, i'm here to say that my computer broke down.

Not sure what's the problem also.

Too much virus or so.

The only thing i'm worry is that it can be fixed even i take it to format.

Anyway, just hope it will be okay.

Not taking it to fix anytime soon.

Because just no one seems to be free.

Fuck this life without computer.

Oh you might be wondering why am i still blogging.

Using my cousin's laptop. yeah.

I'm thinking if my computer cant be fixed then i'll consider buying a laptop too.

of course using my own cash, from bank.

but... nah, it will bring so much troubles so still hope that the computer is nothing big deal.

The national service list was out.

I was too nervous to check it yesterday.

So i plan to wait for school to announce.

But yesterday midnight,

Huimun called me and ask for my IC number.

I know she was going to check for me.

Butr seriously, i dont want to know it that fast.

Be it getting in or not,

i just dont feel like bothering at all.

Hmm but its okay.

After the call, i heard my phone ring.

Message.

But i didnt read it. Not until now.

Maybe i should read it later.

Bye peeps.

That Man

2011-07-08T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hmm. Though i did not think of sharing this out,

but i just feel like posting it all of sudden.

Nah, not going to care anymore.

Just so much passion in singing. :D

Really love this song so, yeah, did a cover.

I'm not going to say sorry for hurting your ears or so.

Because this is my blog and you choose to listen it or not.

Bye! :D

Daily life

2011-07-06T06:00:00.000-07:00

Same shit, different day.

This line is so suitable for me.

Not just me, but WE,

we do the same thing everyday.

Wake up, school, tuition, sleep.

The matter is just that we did it on different day.

This daily routine, i'm so sick of it.

Ugh.

Anyway, today is just usual.

Nothing special happened.

Had quite lot fun in th class also. :D

Then physics tuition.

Ahh i was so sleepy during the first thirty minutes.

It happen to me EVERY SINGLE TIME.

Dont ask, i dont know why though.

I did not sleep late, still, i feel sleepy during class.

Whatever.

And.. SPM is like 131 days to go.

To make itmore clear, or scary,

less than 20 weeks.

I just dont feel like thinking about it.

Okay lets not talk about this.

I cant stop thinking about yoseobie. T.T

Hur hur hur. His cute image keep appearing in my mind.

His sexy face in that picture keep floating in my mind too.

I would not forget how cute his voice is in person.

On that day, yeah, the showcase,

the moment he talk,

i swear, i melted inside.

How can a guy be so cute.

Perfection.

Told

2011-07-04T01:26:00.000-07:00

Yeah so i had already told them about the showcase.

I'm really happy to share.

But i'm worry if some of them might think i'm bragging or what.

Hmm. Anything.

I'm not worry to forget anything during the showcase.

Because there will be the next chance to meet them.

And even nearer. ;D

Speaking about this,

i really admire this one person.

Sometimes when i think about her,

she's really a talented one.

Hahaha.

If i was given a chance to exchange my soul with another person,

that girl would be great.

Hmm what the hell i'm talking nonsense.

Okay.

So i was thinking that i should start working hard already.

Yeah, for exams.

I wonder if i can make it or not.

I'm worry. Of course.

But the more i think about it,

the more i feel annoyed.

So can i just leave it?

Whatever it is,

today...

can be counted as a great day too, i guess. lol

There are times when i just feel like caring so much.

Because i experienced it, so i understand how it feels.

One do need love and care from another when one feels down.

So i hope i could be the one who care about others.

Though sometimes i may seems to be busybody.

But who the hell care, i'm just doing things i feel like doing.

Yeah, i'm just following my heart.

And there's this one girl,

with angelic face,

but evil heart.

Yeah people like this do exist.

Everytime i look at her i do not know how to react.

Whenever i think about her having this evil heart and thoughts,

i'm disgusted.

My mind is growing.

Thats all for today.

Bye.

BEAST SHOWCASE

2011-07-01T09:57:00.000-07:00

Yeah so i'm here to talk about the showcase just now.

Haha yeah just now. Cause i just reach home and finish bathing.

Okay so i'm gonna start from the very beginning.

Around 4.30pm, my brother and I went to the venue or the showcase.

We thought it was still so early so it wouldnt be so many people.

But this thought is definitely wrong.

When we reach there, we already saw many people queuing up.

Some of them even sits on the floor and writing message on those big cardboard for Beast.

Unexpectedly, i saw many guys too!

There were two guys sitting down and decorating the cardboard slowly.

This amazed me so much.

At the same time, i was so happy to know that there are actually so many fanboys.

Hahahahaha.

So we find a right spot, where it is quite front also.

Yeahh.. So we just stand there and wait.

It was so sunny and we are all sweating like crazy

But B2uties are all so high spirited and never complain about it.

B2uties daebak!

As we wait the sun go down slowly..

There were some girls selling Beast t shirt and fan too.

Glowstick and other stuff.

They even gives us grey colour balloons for free!

When the time reach 7pm,

the guard start letting us to go in.

Everyone is sooooooo excited.

People standing at behind keep pushing us who stand in front.

Then i hear one girl says, 'Beauty, behave.'

Hahahaha. Yeah i like it. We should behave.

So yeah, as we pass through those guards they checked out bags.

We are not allowed to bring foods.

But you know what, I have lots snack in my bag!

They took everything away. ;____;

Okay nevermind as long as i get to see beast.

So we quickly rush in after that.

I stand quite far from the stage i guess.

But it was right in front of the stage.

I can still see their face.

The showcase starts at 8.30pm.

Around 8pm, us b2uties already feeling so excited.

I don't know about the others but i feel excited as hell.

When the sky turns completely dark,

the stage lighting looks even nicer.

The big screen behind the stage writes 'The 1st Beast Fanmeeting Asia Tour'

We were all waiting patiently,

suddenly, there is a moving cable toward the stage.

It was Beast sitting on it!!!

We screamed so loudly as it passed through.

5 mins later, the MC start talking and said that the showcase is gonna start very soon.

Few more mins later, Beast start moving up the stage on a platform!

Oh my god, that moment!

I couldnt believe i was standing there!

I screamed like crazy, believe me, totally crazy!

Okay let me go straight to the point.

They wear white and grey outift.

Junhyung was in a totally white outfit!

They performed Special for the first song :D

The atmosphere was so high!

I dont know, all i do is just scream and scream.

Tell you, Junhyung look so damn good in person!

Seriously, he looks way handsome than in videos.

And yoseob, his voice is even cuter in person!

So fucking cute!

The way he laugh, ahh i'm dying.

His voice can really melt you heart.

After Special performance,

they continue performing Breath.

ksjdhfjklsaghddfjk

I died. Seriously, Haha.

After that they start introducing themselves.

Yoseob said 'Aku cinta pada mu' which means i love you in Malay language.

AHHHHH yeah the same respond as well, screamed.

Hmm.. i dont know why but Junhyung looks kinda dull.

He didnt talk much.

There was a game session too.

6 fans were invited on stage to play games with Beast.

They make a pairing.

The game was playing bowling. Hahahaha

Junhyung paired up with a korean girl.

How lucky.

Doojoon paired up with a hot girl wearing hot clothes.

When they sit down on the stairs,

he gives the girl his towel to cover her thighs.

He's so sweet..... ;___;

Yoseob paired up with a Malay girl.

Damn, i was so jealous of this girl.

Yoseob hugged her so many times.

Dongwoon's pairing won the game.

Okay, after the game session,

they continue with

Shock,

Oasis,

On Rainy Days,

Fiction,

I like you the best

and end the showcase with V.I.U

After the Oasis performance,

we shouted encore so loudly.

Hahahah.

Oh yeah, Doojoon celebrated his birthday too!

We all sang him birthday song in korean version.

I was so happy about it :D

Hmm.. yeah the sad moment will come no matter what.

The showcase is coming to the end.

So they stand on the platform again,

and go down.

I saw one of their hand doing the Hyunseung's peace sign.

Hahahahah. They are so cute.

When the platform almost go down complete,

I think it was Doojoon, he ran out again and say bye to us.

Hahahaha. Yoonleader so cute.

Such a memorable day,

although i was tired as hell after that,

but once i think about it,

it was all worth it :D

One think i was sad about is that Yoseob's hair is in black.

I hope to see his hair in that gold and brownish colour.

This kind of happiness, i dont even know how am i gonna express.

Beast, i love them more than anything else.

2 things i still think about it a lot,

-Junhyung looks so fucking good.

-Yosoeb's is so fucking cute and his voice is just... ugh.

Overall, the fanmeeting was a great success.

We are not allowed to record.

But i still took a few photos of it. Heh.

Yeah will upload it as soon as possible!

SG

2011-06-30T09:06:00.000-07:00

I still miss Secret Garden so damn much.

It is just so nice. ;____;

and i like HyunBin so much too ;__________;

I swear i will watch it again and again

Showcase

2011-06-30T04:43:00.000-07:00

So yeah..

I'm now at my mother's house in KL.

Why am i here?

Heheh.

Tomorrow is the 1st of july!

Yeah Beast showcase tomorrow.

I'm gonna overnight at here for 2 nights.

Will be heading out tomorrow around 11.30pm.

After lunch, me and my brother will go to Sunway Pyramid for ice skating first.

After that, we'll go to the venue of the showcase, Sunway Lagoon and queue up.

I'm feeling so excited to look at them standing right in front of me.

I keep wondering how do they look in person?

I mean as in.. real life. yeah. lol

Zhenying asked who's name will i shout first when they come out.

Hmm.. Junhyung? Yoseob?

I think it will most probably be like AHHHH

instead of a name. lol

Hmmm..

But right now i'm so bored.

I have nothing to do.

This is not my house and i feel so unfamiliar with it.

Hmm.. However, tomorrow will definitely be a great day.

I'm looking forward to it. :D

That man

2011-06-26T07:34:00.001-07:00

One man loves you
That man loves you wholeheartedly
He follows you around like a shadow everyday
That man cries as he laughs
Just how...
How much more do i have to gaze at you alone?
This love that came like the wind
This love like a begger
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just a little nearer... a little more...
If I take one step closer to you
Then you take two steps back
I , who love you, is next to you even now
That man cries.

That man's personality is very shy
So he learned how to laugh
That man's heart has many stories that he can't even tell his best friend
His heart is filled with scars
So that man,
You, he loved you because you were the same way
Yet another fool, yet another fool
Can't you hug me before I go?
I want to be loved, baby
Everyday in my heart,
Just in my heart
I shouted and that man,
That man is next to her even today.
Do you know that man was me?
You aren't doing this to me even though you know it?
You probably don't know,
because you're a fool.

Just how...
How much more do i have to gaze at you alone?
This love that came like the wind
This love like a begger
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just a little nearer... a little more...
If I take one step closer to you
Then you take two steps back
I , who love you, is next to you even now
That man cries.

秘密花园

2011-06-26T01:47:00.000-07:00

在你梦境里，有这么多烦恼吗？

-应为你忠出现在我的梦境里。

在你梦境里，跟我在一起也是那么的不幸福吗？

-是不幸福，但是也只好让你进来。明天也是，后天也是。

Such a great day!

2011-06-22T03:26:00.000-07:00

Today is such a great day!

Ahhh.

What an awesome day.

That guy. Yeah i'm glad that i can actually look at him for that long.

Everytime i met him i can only look at him for a while.

In the bus, the always sat behind me.

Hohoho today was different.

Ahhh he's like a manga character. :D

GREAT DAYYYYYY <3

but hey dont misundetstand,

i do not love him,

i just like to see him.

FJ is still in my heart, yeah, always :)

okay fine

2011-06-19T09:36:00.000-07:00

Sighs.

Friendship problem.

Why always me.

Speaking honestly,

I'm so sick of it.

But i'm not tired of it.

Which means i'm still ready to get through everything.

Not giving up that easily.

Yeah, thats me.

Okay bye i'm sleep gotta find my lovely bed right now.

I love you both for chatting with me about it.

Thanks. :)

okay fine

2011-06-19T09:35:00.003-07:00

Sighs.

Friendship problem.

Why always me.

Speaking honestly,

I'm so sick of it.

But i'm not tired of it.

Which means i'm still ready to get through everything.

Not giving up that easily.

Yeah, thats me.

Okay bye i'm sleep gotta find my lovely bed right now.

I love you both for chatting with me about it.

Thanks. :)

Mixed feeling

2011-06-16T08:25:00.000-07:00

Beast goodbye stage today.

They performed Fiction, as usual.

As a special thanks to all of us, B2uties,

they performed You.

Aww. They look so perfect.

Their singing is perfect too.

They are so precious.

So precious to me.

I'm so happy for myself that i found them.

And fall in love with them.

I'm so lucky that i have them in my heart now.

I love them.

Yeah, I'm gonna say this.

It may sounds crazy, but yeah, this is what i feel like saying now.

I couldnt believe how yoseob make me feel.

Since when did him become so important to my life?

This precious kid. You're just amazing :)

He's so precious that i wanted to stay with him forever.

As in.. erm.. i wanted him to stay in my heart forever.

This sounds possile a little bit compared to the up one right? LOL

I have mixed feelings now.

They ended their promotion in Korea and gotta head to Japan and start promoting again.

I feel sad that i cant watch them on stage any time soon.

I'm sad that they're gonna be all busy again and theor health got worse.

But at the same time i felt happy too.

I'm happy that they appreciate us so much.

I'm happy that they worked so hard and they got their fame now.

Hmmm.

How should i make it clear eh?

haha. its just so complicated.

I'm surprise that i take them into my heart so deeply.

Seriously,

i cant say anything bad about other group,

but for me, yeah just for me,

they are really the best.

I dont know.

Watch them. Know about them.

Slowly, you'll know how precious are they ^_^

Ahhh, i'm just so lucky.

I'm touched

2011-06-15T08:05:00.000-07:00

Just some crap before i go to bed.

Someone told me

'ur the nicest person alive'

Yeah, i'm nice.

But i dont think i'm the nicest.

I'm happy that this person tell me so.

Though i can tell his person, i'm not.

I mean i did not do enough to get such a compliment.

But i'll try my best to live my life.

I'll try my best to make everyone smile.

Seriously, believe it or not,

i really love seeing people smile.

I'm even happier if i'm the one who make he/she smile.

Thats why i'm so happy all the way. :D

Okay.

Anyway, thanks.

I'm so grateful to get message like this.

Though i dont even know who is that.

Or if its real or not.

Just prank or speaking truly,

i dont mind.

I already feel nice getting line like this.

How can i express my gratitude to you, anon.

Guess simple still the best,

Thank you. :)

Finally

2011-06-14T08:58:00.000-07:00

I'm glad that you tell me. :)

Seriously, i have been waiting for this day for ages.

Of course, i mean what i say.

I dont mind. Hmm.

Maybe you'll think that me being like this is all fake.

Since I did not lie, I'm not worry about it.

Its better for you to tell me, you know.

I have been thinking so much about what's in your brain.

But i get nothing. Haha.

Because you're too complicated.

Or should i say you're mysterious?

You know i know i'm the one who you're referring right?

yeah i'm sure of it.

Since you give out hint which is so obvious.

I'm not hurt, really.

I dont know why, i feel relieved.

Finally you're here to voice out your thoughts.

I've been waiting for this.

You know, for you to keep it so deep,

i'd rather you to tell it out.

Because I'm fine with it.

I wonder if you know I'll fine even you tell me face to face.

Because this is me, you see.

I have so much patience and understanding to give out to anyone.

Ahh, it doesnt matter if you do not believe i have such a personality.

Just gotta tell you,

you help me a lot.

You are just so helpful and you didnt complain when things messed up.

There were times when your mood swings and you're hard to talk to.

But its just for a short period and i'm used to it.

haha. because that is you.

Yes, i admit that you're hard to approach.

Because we can hardly mix our topics together.

You know, we don't really have topics actually.

Haha. But its fine. I kinda try to find any topics to speak with you.

I wonder if you realize? ^^

Nah, its okay.

Then i try to show you i care about you.

By many ways, maybe you didnt realize it too did you?

Anyway, you're a great friend.

Hmm. Maybe its just me that making it hard for us to get closer?

We barely have anything in common.

We grew up in different situation,

under different background.

There are things you wouldn't understand in me.

I'm not trying to say anything to piss you off, really. :)

But for real, something i take it important and serious,

you would just feel like its no big deal.

So sometimes this would actually build a wall between us i guess?

But it's okay. Everyone have differences among themselves right?

So it's not a big problem actually.

Wow. I say so much already.

I say out all this is because i feel like i should let you know.

Still remember we talked on phone for 3 hours+?

And thats in midnight somemore. Haha

Whatever it is, i dont think its a big deal though.

I didn't take it to heart.

I'm still gonna be like usual. :D

Worries

2011-06-12T09:40:00.000-07:00

In my life so far, I never worry anyone this much.

Plus, someone who doesnt even know my existence.

This morning when i read about the rumors and his tweets,

how he felt about b2uties and being sad,

i was like oh shit, he's not happy.

He used to be someone who smile a lot,

the troll member in beast.

Today when they won first on inkigayo,

he stand behind of all the members and didnt smile.

After watching him behaving like that,

we b2uties know he was really sad about all the rumors.

Then, i even fall sick.

I had a major flu.

This flu is killing me and my mood gone really bad.

I keep thinking if he's okay.

You wouldnt understand if you're not part of the fandom.

We always see him being happy.

The happiest member among all.

He used to be so cute and sweet.

This sudden change on him really break most of our heart.

Just now,

he tweeted that he felt better already.

He thanks us for caring him, thinking about him.

As soon as i see this tweet of him,

ah. i feel as in the whole world has open up.

I feel so happy. So happy that i'm totally brighten up.

Seriously, i had never worry an idol so much.

Some people might think its silly.

I think i'm silly too,

but i just couldnt control myself.

Now, my flu has gone!

Hahahahahaha.

The moment i read the translation of his tweet which saying that he felt better,

my flu has totally vanished!

I couldnt explain how this will happen too.

This is the first time in my life that i worried someone until i fell sick.

I'm so happy now!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel awesome :D

It as 12.38am now.

I can sleep without any worries now.

Hahahahahahaha

Seriously, how can i explain this kind of happiness in me right now.

I didnt expect he can affect me so much.

Seobbie, please stay happy forever.

We b2uties always trust in you.

Always and forever. :)

Goodnight everybody

Life goes on

2011-06-10T04:19:00.000-07:00

Two more days and school gonna reopen!

Sighs.

Why does this two weeks holiday coming to the end with such a high speed?

I dont think i've rest enough.

Wouldn't it be nice if i could sleep after 12am everynight and

wake up after 12pm everyday?

The worse thing is, i hadn't touch any of my homework yet.

Seriously, fuck this smelly shit.

Whatever it is,

life still goes on.

I know even if i complain here would not change anything.

I still have to live my fucked up life.

Hahahahaha.

Ah, just some part of it are fucked up though.

There were still many parts which i enjoyed so much.

Hmmm..

I think i should start working hard after this break.

We'll see.

Laters.

Requested gif :)

2011-06-09T08:01:00.000-07:00

A requested gif from puisan :)

Here you are ^_^

Yoseob the angry bird LOL

Keep on

2011-06-04T04:33:00.000-07:00

I continue living my life because i havent get to do all these things.

Buy an amazing camera
Travels to Paris,Japan,Korea,NewYork,Carlifornia
Capture photos that impress people
Meet my idols
Meet the person who show me the real meaning of life
Meet the one who realy appreciate me
Have my own little family
Have my cute children
Earn money and make sure my dad's wouldn't suffer in the future
Become a computer professional
Decorate my own dream house
Experience the feeling of love
See the nature
Eat the best food all over the world

And so much more. Those above are just the main things.

If someone tell me i wouldn't get to do those things in the future,

I will die right now.

Also, because of all these,

I'll stay strong,

and continue living my life no matter how fucked up it is. :)

Holiday

2011-06-01T07:46:00.000-07:00

Hey, it is now June.

One month passed so fast.

So fast that i don't even feel like believing.

Its June holiday now.

I'm gonna take enough rest during this two weeks holidays.

Still remember,

last year June was a memorable month.

The month which i get to know him.

The month which i first talk to him.

the month which we become friend.

All this, how could i forget.

Hmm..

talking about all this,

I hadnt contact him for quite a long time.

I wish i could talk to him.

Face to face.

But it is kinda impossible right. Hah.

I miss my brother again.

I know its random.

Just feel like letting it out.

Ah, did i told you guys that i'm going for Beast showcase on the 1st July?

Guess i didn't, did i?

However, just gotta talk about it.

I'm so happy about it.

Or should i say I'm excited. very.

i can finally see them. Yeah.

Sometimes,

i just feel like i lost interested in everything.

As if there is nothing in the world that i want to care about.

but that is just for sometimes.

and this feeling stay for just a moment.

A short moment. I wonder why.

Its weird. I dont like it.

I think i'm going crazy, am i? LOL

Sometimes i just someone to talk to.

When i can't think of anyone, then i start making conclusion myself on everything.

No one to open me up.

Sighs. what a cruel world.

I might seems okay. But what.

What do you know about what's inside me.

Haha. i sounds scary, do i?

Nah, i'm okay.

This is normal isn't?

Everyone do think about stuff like this once in a while.

And when you're done with it,

you'll be all fine again.

Thats what you call human.

Okay, just gotta update about myself. :)

Found it back

2011-05-28T09:39:00.000-07:00

Pass few days,

i had been so depressed due to some problem about life.

Laughter seems to have leave me.

Whatever i do, i just couldn't smile wholeheartedly.

This morning, my grandma asked me to do housework,

she scolded me a few lines.

And my tears start to flows out.

It was not under control.

It flows just like that,

without crying sounds,

with eyes open widely.

I never thought depression could lead to sickness.

In the evening,

I felt so dull.

Like usual, computer being my best friend.

All the time.

I continue my subbing work,

finished it and send it to the subbing team admin.

When i read my inbox,

i realize there was a message from Dan about how to make gif.

So i finally decided to try out.

NOW

I had already make 12 edits.

I posted everything on tumblr.

During the process of editing,

i feel so happy and it is so interesting.

This feeling has been gone for so long.

I finally found it back.

The happiness of life.

I can strongly feel it once again.

I felt so satisfied once i complete an edit.

The feeling is just so great.

Slowly, laughter came back.

The real laughter.

There was one edit i posted on tumblr,

i got back so much feedback.

So many people liked and reblogged it.

looking at the number of notes increasing every minutes,

the feeling was awesome!

Then i could finally laugh and smile when i do everything.

To make it more clear,

it was Beast who bring back this meaning of life to me.

The first edit, the first gif that i made was their photos.

While i'm editing, i feel that life do have meaning.

I don't know how to explain this kind of satisfaction.

/Gasp

Anyway! All that depression period had passed!

I'm now the happy me once again.

I fell in love with editing. :D

Disappearance

2011-05-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

I dont know what kind of feel i'm feeling recently.

I'm so dull.

I'm thinking all kind of being alone stuff.

Just yesterday,

when we asked her about why she seldom talk

and she answered

'i have no life.'

This line affected me way more than i expected.

What do you mean by no life?

Noticed another she said

'i live to find the real meaning of life.'

All this.

But seriously, what do you mean by life?

What are we doing in our life?

We dont have any idea about out future.

We know nothing about tomorrow.

So what are we actually doing?

All we did is just living a day, to wait for tomorrow to comes.

So it means there will be no definition of life.

When i combine all this together,

i realize i totally lost my aim of life.

I feel empty.

Then i start feeling like i'm all alone by myself.

Though i know i have family and friends.

But who, who will be there to let you know that you're not alone.

After thinking so much of it, i know i'm all lone.

I have nothing. 'Thing' that support my life.

Slowly, i understand why would she say she have no life.

After gone through all thing deep thinking,

I wanted to be alone so much.

So much that i can lock myself in my room.

Where, where are this person?

A person who always be there and tell you you are not alone at all.

Family dont tell such thing.

This is something stupid, idiotic.

But think.

And i have this feeling of wanted to disappear.

Not really disappear, but ignored by everyone.

Seriously. what is life anymore.

I couldn't even tell a thing about it.

I'm tired in walking this path called life.

I have no support. Solid support.

However, until the day i found a person who let me understand the word LIFE,

who let me feel how a real life is,

I will keep on walking,

be strong,

and stand till the last

CHANGED

2011-05-26T08:12:00.000-07:00

So i gotta say sorry about my previous post.

Hahaha. I said i won't be going to Beast showcase,

but now i'm actually going! Haha.

Bought the ticket, asked permission, everything settled.

I'm so happy. Extremely.

I'm not going to try hard to explain how i feel now.

Because it is beyond words.

Okay whatever it is, i'm seeing them.

I AM SEEING THEM.

god. how can i believe this.

Going with brother and huimun. :)

How should i say this.

Am i dreaming.

No no. I will be saying this after i come back from showcase.

Will i be all tearing up when i see them?

I wonder.

I cant wait no more.

I wanna see them right now, right at this moment.

I pray heartedly nothing bad will happen until that day which is 1st July.

I'll take good care of myself until that day comes.

Beast, these boys would be my first.

First in my seeing-idol-with-own-eyes list. Hah.

I dont get this chance by just asking.

I had done many things,

go through a lot of things,

trying my best to get this chance to see them.

I know clearly that things you want would not come to you if you do nothing.

This result is just an exchange of my effort.

I'm glad that i could see them in real life.

Thanks to huimun who helped so much in buying the ticket,

thanks to my brother for accompanying me,

thanks to my mom who willing to sponsor the ticket,

thanks to my dad who agreed about this without a second thought,

thanks to my grandma who didnt voice out something bad.

So much gratitude that i want to show.

I am so happy.

Beast, i'm coming, just you wait.

Yay

2011-05-21T01:16:00.000-07:00

So the mid term ended just like that.

And this is the first time we celebrate our end of mid term with fireworks.

Hehe.

I would not forget how great was yesterday night.

How much fun we have had.

And gotta thanks Zhenying for accompanying me for the whole day. XD

Taking photos using Huimun's ipod,

the moment all the spotlight turned off and everyone light up their lantern,

the AMAZING fireworks just above my head,

and more and more!

All this i will never never forget.

This is the first time i see a firework so near that i could feel i am touching it.

You will never understand that kind of feeling until you tried it.

It was awesome.

I couldn't express that deep feeling inside me.

All i know is that i screamed uncontrollably.

I never thought i can scream that loud.

I am happy that i was there when all those thing happen.

Seeing things with your eyes are really different. :D

Yesterday was a day that i laughed so much until i am tired of laughing.

Being with you guys are really happy.

You guys brought so much happiness to me. ^_^

That kind of happiness is different with all those i had last time.

This is what you call the real Happiness.

Haha what am i talking about.

Okay.

Time to talk a bit about Beast.

The showcase on 1st of July.

I think i wont be going.

I think i should go to their concert instead of just a showcase.

Its okay, i know i can withstand not going. i guess.

Haha.

Sometimes we should think wisely too even comes to all this fangirl and idol topic.

Must be under control.

Of course i am sad.

Don't ever say i can withstand not going is because i do not love them enough.

Shut up. You understand nothing.

Through someone, i understand that everything you do,

you do not actually need everyone to understand.

Just do what you want.

We can't please everyone.

And i have my own life.

I don't need anyone to allow me to do anything.

She is a person like that.

And i definitely like her style in doing everything in her life.

I hope that i could do that too.

That 'I dont care who the hell are, its none of your fucking business' type.

I kinda admire people like that.

Because i am not. And i hope i can be.

I love my circle the most.

They are different with others.

THEY are different compared to them.

They are back!

2011-05-18T08:20:00.000-07:00

Beast gonna make their comeback on mnet tomorrow.

And i am freaking excited right now.

I cant wait to see them perform on the stage once again.

And with such a perfect choreography.

Just by imagining i already feel happy. Hee

Definitely buying their album.

To be frank, i owned every single of their album so far.

Mini album.

But this time is gonna be a big hit.

It a full album with 10 songs.

Maybe i should start saving money for it.

okay..

and 2 more days i am gonna be free.

Not totally free but at least i dont need to stick to those freaking thick revision books.

LOL

and of course, to get enough sleep. :D

Still feel so impress on the night before beast album tracks is released.

That night was like all the b2uties on tumblr have their own countdown post.

Hahaha. And all the gif they used was really funny.

Feel really proud to have such a great band as my favourite band.

No matter what people say,

i know i choose the right fandom this time.

Still, i dare not say forever being a b2uty.

Because if i say so people will start judging and go like

'well, we'll see.'

That is really irritating.

Anyway, i enjoy how much i like them now.

I dont even care to bother if i will forget them one day.

And i feel glad that they actually exist in my life. :)

beauty and the beast :D

2011-05-14T00:23:00.000-07:00

Fucking watch if you haven't LOL

Proud to be a b2uty.

Beast's song never fail to impressed me.

Edited by me. :)

I'm exhausted

2011-05-12T07:01:00.000-07:00

Just one more day and one week of mid term is left.

This one week passes like one year.

I'm tired. I'm exhausted.

I wanna have a break.

I used my brain so hard until it is almost gonna explode.

I feels greatest the moment i reach home because i can finally take a rest after a long day.

I was hoping to get some family support.

But they just cant seems to understand how tired i was.

My happy feeling about home get destroyed just like that.

even if they misunderstood me,

i did not explain. i did not talk back.

not because i am mad.

but i was just too tired to speak.

I do not have the energy to fight back anything.

Just let things left unexplained.

So what.

As part of a family you can't even understand.

I feel like going to a place where no one knows me.

I want to live alone.

That is all i want for this moment.

I hate being misunderstood and i will always try my best to make everything cleared.

but sorry, this time i really don't feel like speaking anymore.

Still, this is the reality, this is my life.

All i could do is just to accept it.

sorry

2011-05-04T04:01:00.000-07:00

Sorry bloggie.

Tomorrow's the mid term examination.

I cant update you and keep you fresh.

Wait for me.

I will be back on 20th May.

Loves ^_^

Never forget to wish everyone all the best!

2011-04-28T07:15:00.000-07:00

I wanted to meet such person also.

I envy them so much.

I wanted to experience those things also.

I wanted to feels the happiness to be cared.

Though it is not something right to be done,

but seriously, it is just so sweet.

Had been wondering about this really hard recently.

Seriously, who. Who will be there for me?

I'm waiting for this person to walk in to my life.

But when.

Ah. I'm being all sentimental here again.

Hum. Maybe i'm just curious.

And this curiosity really is killing me.

I hope to meet you soon.

Yes, you. I dont even know who the hell is that.

Hoping really hard that i could experience a memorable story.

one the way back

2011-04-26T01:10:00.000-07:00

On the way back from school,

i thought about this a lot.

i miss him.

not trying to sounds ehw.

Just wanna express that i really miss him.

Can i tell him i have feelings towards him?

Its not like i like him or anything.

I just feel good towards him.

Hmm. I want to know him better.

Seriously. I want to get closer to him.

But what the hell can i do.

I dont deserve someone like him.

I do not have the confidence. Really.

All that i could do its just thinking about it.

And anticipating the next time we will meet.

i wanna off my switch

2011-04-17T02:05:00.000-07:00

The urge to sing is increasing day by day.

There's less than a month to the mid term exam.

But i seriously doesnt feel like doing revision at all.

Of course, i'm worry about it.

But somehow i just couldnt study.

Or to be more frank, i dont know where to start first.

Actually if i start doing revision now its already kinda late.

But if there is a will, there is a way.

Sighs. I hope i will be awaken sooner or later.

This is the most free Sunday ever.

I always wanted to have such Sunday.

No tuition, no outing.

Just stay at home and face the computer.

But when such a day come, like today, i feels lonely.

Not really the the meaning of lonely, but just...

its like i'm too free and i dont have anything to work on.

Though i know i should use my free time on studying,

but ya know, thats kind of impossible, for me. lol

Everytime people ask me about how many As do i aim for spm,

i answer them dont know. Maybe 3 or better, 5.

The reply i get from them are always the same.

Why did i aim just that and not more?

I dont know if they understand or not.

Honestly, i has no confident for more.

Really.

I just couldnt tell myself, 'okay i can get more than 5 or maybe straight A.'

They used to say, 'why are you like that. you should have aim higher. Have more confident.'

Now its not that i dont want to be more confident but i dont think i can.

I know how good am i and my level of studying.

I understand myself well.

I know that the chance for me to hit my 5As target is very low.

I had been worrying about my studies lately, but i just didnt make any action to solve that.

Perhaps i should be called idiot or some stupid lazy bumb. Haa.

Sighs. I dont know what more. I feels bothered to think about studies.

I hate thinking about studies. Fucking hate.

Sea Change

2011-04-12T03:35:00.000-07:00

Okay!

Its time to update. Haa.

Currently reading a novel title Sea Change.

This is the first love novel i have ever read. lol

'Cause before this all the novels i read are vampire-related.

So i feels really great reading romance and love storyline.

It can really make you feel or i can say, make you want to feel.

Reading such love story bring effects on me thinking about him more.

IU day is coming.

And i seriously hope to see him there.

I want to see him. Thats all i can say.

Dont give it a wrong idea that i'm so in love with him until i lost myself.

I'm just feeling good towards him. As in...

I just want us to be friend. Thats enough.

Okay.

What is she thinking recently.

Just by thinking what she thought gives me goosebumps.

Her thinking is like a psycho now.

Ohmygod i just gave up trying to understand her anymore.

Not just me but everyone.

Let her be the one she think she is---all high and mighty.

Tsk. Thinking of her always agreeing to herself doing right really makes me laugh.

Alright so you're the coolest then.

Ah. So my form 6 plan is now canceled. lol

I'm going college to study information technology.

Most probably Sunway.

And i wanna say,

I dont want to meet you anywhere near there.

Or maybe i can say, i dont want to see you anymore after the graduation.

Just walk out of my life, please and thanks

Great day

2011-04-05T03:34:00.000-07:00

Today's school was great.

Hahaha. I slept around 10.30 yesterday.

So this morning when i wake up, i feel great.

I do not feel sleepy and tired. Yay :D

Its a warm day though.

On the way to school,

i was thinking a lot of stuff.

You should call it old stuff.

I flash back some old memories when i was in the primary school.

Come to think about it, my personality didnt change much actually.

Then i let out a small smirk thinking everything childish i had done.

LOL

After school there was a leader meeting about the coming rangers camp.

To be frank, i felt awkward during those leader meeting before this.

Not really awkward, but just.. not feeling good.

I was having hard time dealing with it.

But now i think i'm away from this feeling already.

The leader meeting now seems to be okay.

And we laughed along when there's something funny.

Actually i feels really great with that. :)

After that went to take bus with Puisan passing through Parade.

I was hoping that the bus will come early all the way i walk to the bus stop.

Yesterday was really a bad day.

I waited the bus for 2 hours. Gosh.

whatthehell.

Thank god, the bus come early today. Heh.

I waited for 10 minutes only.

In the bus, i think about him a lot.

Hmm. Wonder how is he doing.

Ya so i think thats for today :D

Have a nice day buddies

short and simple

2011-04-01T08:13:00.000-07:00

Just a short update.

Just to make sure my blog dont look dead.

Just to make it fresher.

LOL

Some update about what i'm feeling recently.

Ukiss comeback was great.
4minute comeback was awesome.
Beast's new photos makes me gone crazy.
tumblr still 79 followers.
Miss my primary school days
want a long break or holiday
want to sing my lungs out
bored of facebook
Bm tuition is great
Jiyoon look so good with that hair.
Hate this durian season
feel like saying fuck so much to whatever i'm not happy with LOL
fucking want yoseob and junhyung keke

Finally.

Never forget, today is April Fool.

Happy April Fool. Lol

Outing :D

2011-03-25T00:17:00.000-07:00

Will be going to High Praise tonight!

Hah.

It has been a long time i didnt go out for this kind of activity.

Since its free and i actually feel like having fun so just go.

I doubt that it will be fun or not but aiya dont care la.

Just go and if its not fun then whatever.

And tomorrow its saturday!

Since its not a school day so...

Hahahaha.

The main reason is,

i didnt attend this kind of activity for a really really long period.

Though i do feel like staying at home.

To be frank, i prefer staying at home than going out.

The thing i hate the most when i have to go out is,

choosing clothes.

Gosh. i really do not like to think what should i wear.

and i'm bored with all my shirts.

Sighs.

But nevermind la,

since i hasn't go out for such a long period.

Its time to have some fun.

Okay bye. :)

studies

2011-03-22T07:37:00.000-07:00

Studies is nothing without money.

Seriously. If I'm from a rich family i wont be worrying so much like now.

But i didnt hate being not rich. its okay.

As long as i'm willing to work hard.

Tomorrow's SPM result will be out.

Every 1993 people is going to have insomnia tonight. LOL

Goodluck to them :)

I've been thinking a lot about my study route after SPM recently.

Not just me actually but every form 5.

We are all worried.

But now i confirm that i'm going to form 6.

Though it might not be the best decision,

but i will work hard.

Like what my brother said,

No return, No regret.

You make the decision,

then you're gonna work your ass off to prove that

your decision was right.

Thanks to everyone who gave me advise. Thanks :)

huhuhu

2011-03-18T22:49:00.000-07:00

One more day and school gonna reopen!

I didnt hang out with friends at all during this holiday

but its fine. I dont feel like going out though.

Staying at home all day, i feel great. Hahaha.

I know i'm odd.

Having my breakfast now though its already 1.47pm.

LOL

i woke up at 11.30 today.

Hehehe.

I dont even know what homework should be done clearly.

Hahahah

OKay just a short update.

Bye guys

Watch this!

2011-03-15T23:38:00.000-07:00

People! Watch this.

This video make my day :)

write cuz i'm bored

2011-03-15T02:37:00.000-07:00

Ah i'm so bored so i'm here to blog

Lazy to load video so.. all i can do is nothing.

Lol.

You know sometimes you're so freaking busy that you dont even have a minute

to spend on the internet.

But there are times that you're so free and you have nothing to do.

What is life seriously. Hahaaa.

Maybe i should on skype later. Umm. Yea.

i hope to talk to someone.

Anyone.

But who the hell want to talk to me. Lol

Nah, forget about it.

Took a photo that day so gotta upload it here.

Hahah just wanna wear some seob's style.

i'm gonna keep this style as long as possible.

Gotta buy a nicer and better fashion backpack first.

I feel really great with this kind of wearing.

wonder why. ahaha.

My brother went back to KL this afternoon.

Hmm. 4 days passed just like that eh.

Sighs. Its not fun like this. >_>

He should stay like at least one week. hurhurhur

Oh ya! i'm having dilemma for keeping my hair long or short!

I had been thinking about this few days already.

Ah. What should i do. I even asked my father and grandma about it.

hahaha. They suggest me to keep it short.

okay. gotta think about it.

Ah i cant think of anything to write already.

Kay guys thats all. bye!

Hey people!

2011-03-13T04:55:00.000-07:00

Ah! It has been such a long time since my last update!

So i'm here to customize my blog to be fresher again.

hehehe.

So its holiday now, are you guys having fun? :)

Went to the educational fair today.

Mmm., it really helps a lot.

Gain much more information.

For now i'm 90 % confirm studying diploma at Sunway University College.

Not fully confirm yet also la.

Seriously gotta work hard so that i can apply scholarship.

Because the fees are really scary.

I'm worry if my family can afford or not.

Sighs.

About the Japan breaking news,

I really felt sad for that.

So people please just pray for them kay?

So March is coming to the end just like that.

Damn. Time really does fly. LOL

Okay i think thats it for today.

Gotta make a little changes in my sweet bloggie. :)

Bye and happy holiday ^^

COOL

2011-03-03T03:39:00.001-08:00

Are we cool?

Yes we are. :)

I was reading The Chronicles of Vladimir Tod for like 3 hours.

I cant believe i read that long.

It was really hard to stop.

Gosh i'm just so in love with vampire now.

They are so cool.

Yeah i know i'm going crazy.

Vampire

2011-03-02T02:47:00.000-08:00

Just a short update today!

I'm currently so in love with vampires.

HAHAH.

Keep on imagining some really cool vampires.

God.

I hope i'll meet one soon. very soon.

Hohohoho. Seriously what am i thinking.

But really, vampires are some cool stuff.

Skyping with Huimun now.

All because of the stupid oral test. ugh.

Next week is already the march exam.

This will be my last update until the exam end.

So... wish everyone goodluck in their exam also!

Byeeeeeeeeeee.

vampire rocks. LOL